So today I watched this freaky movie with Ian and Matt. It was called 2:37... it was all fine until the incest rape. Before that, it was actually pretty funny, but then damn.

At least they were British?

TEN FIRSTS
1. First Best Friend: Evan Morgan
2. First Pet: Foxy (toy pomerainian that died so we got Woofy)
3. First Piercing: ears
4. First middle school crush: lol. ummm i can't remember. but i remember telling Kenzie so she knows
5. First CD: Spice Girls of course!!
6. First car: Go-Kart
7. First Love: real love? still waiting. like-love? Julian
8. First Stuffed Animal: a Spurs coyote from my dad. of course. wut else?
9. First Concert: Brittany Spears 2nd grade
10. First Time Drunk: that time at Colorado with orange juice...

NINE LASTS
1. Last Beverage: peach tea
2. Last Car Ride: driving home from church
3. Last hmm: today
4. Last Phone Call: I called my dad this morning... Heather just texted me like 5 minutes ago
5. Last CD Played: Random CD in my car.
6. Last Bubble Bath: i want one now...
7. Last Time You Cried: don't really remember
8. Last Kiss: heheh. like a year
9. Last Show attended: Rabbit Hole like a month ago

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
1. Have you ever dated one of your best friends? nope
2. Have you ever been arrested: not yet. Almost though.
3. Have you ever skinny dipped:..........................................................................
4. Have you ever been on TV: yup
5. Have you ever kissed someone and regretted it: haha. you have no idea how much.
6. Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you know: uhm... that isn't awkward
7. Have you ever been sent to the emergency room: not yet
8. Have you ever been in a fist fight: who hasn't?

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING (Right Now)
1. my reindeer shirt that's just a little too small for me
2. black pants
3. bra
4. underwear
5. my Skylar bracelet
6. hair tye around my wrist
7. Too Cool to do Drugs wristband dealy that glows in the dark


SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY IN NO ORDER
1. made that stupid elf yourself thing
2. went to sleep
3. woke up
4. opened presents
5. went to church
6. ate food

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. Heather
2. Harry Potter
3. the internet
4. fanfiction
5. Stars

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO (this is in no order)
1. Heather
2. Kenzie
3. Hal
4. Myself

THREE CHOICES
1. Eat or Drink: drink
2. Blonde or brunette: brunette
3. Pink or black: Black.

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. everything
2. be happy

ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. in the process of regretting not taking more risks... go for it!


Ok. yeah so I was reading through my old entries and found this. I realized that a lot of my opinions changed over time, so I decided to fill it out again. Pretty cool, huh? Well, maybe one day in the future again I'll fill it out AGAIN!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

R.I.P. Jubilee

Merry Christmas.

Ok, so this Thanksgiving Break wasn't that exciting. After my surgery and stuff, not much happened. On Wednesday at like 2 we left for Ft. Worth. The drive was boring. We got there later and basically went to sleep.

We went to Sherry and Jay's for Thanksgiving lunch. Lance's family came, so did Rob and Janet an dKyle (who brough his roomate from ATM) and Randy and Brenda. I played a lot of mariokart on the wii with Katy and Jody. I also texted nonstop.

The next day we went to the King Tut exhibit, and then to Sherry's again, and that's it. More texting. Halo didn't work. We watched a movie. Friday night I talked to Ian for like an hour, and then Taylor. Matt also called me. It was kinda weird because he thinks I'm a lesbian right now. Ian told me that while I was gone, him Taylor and Talisha convinced Matt of THE STORY. It's kinda freakin hilairious that he believed it! But yeah. Apparently he felt awkward talking to me after that, but he texted me a ton. The funniest part was that he blamed himself for Heather turning gay. I don't know why the hell he would think that. Typical guy thing to think. So yeah. I also talked to Heather for a little bit. I really missed her the whole break.

Then, on saturday, I came home! That night I hung out with Talisha Taylor Ian and Matt. We didn't really do much. We watched Tropic Thunder and talked in my room. Ian wanted to tell Matt the truth, but I want Heather to be there. I kinda wanna mess with him JUST a little bit right before we tell him. So yeah.

So then today was Sunday! This morning I woke up at 6:30 with my teeth hurting like effing crazy. I couldn't even sleep. So at 7 I finally gave in and went and took a painkiller. Then I went back to sleep. I got up around noon and felt terrible. I don't know why, but I just felt depressed and kinda sick. Dizzy. So I laid down and tried to sleep some more. This might've had something to do with Heather kinda ignoring me through texts. Ian wanted to have a tea party.

But so yeah. I remember this morning I felt like smashing my head into a wall, breaking a window with my face and then eating the glass. I just felt terrible! But then I thought maybe I'd feel better if I ate something, even though I just had oatmeal for breakfast. So I went and made some easy mac and ate that. Then I did feel better! A lot better! So I went over to Ian's and had our tea party and we played poker for a while, but that got boring so we started playing Apples to Apples. Everyone else really liked the tea, but I'm not really one for hot tea and it kinda started making me sick after a while. So I drank one cup (that was kinda hard) and then some of the other one. We made 3 different types of tea, each one more expensive, but I couldn't bring myself to try the last one. I just felt gross. I felt bad too because it was like expensive tea and I wouldn't drink it, but eh. I felt like puking. So then Matt had to leave, and then Taylor and Ian helped me decide which take of my English song (I've Got a PhD - written about Running With Scissors) that I recorded earlier to use to turn in. Then we just kinda chilled for a while.

So then we decided we wanted to go out to eat together, but we wanted to wait for Heather to come too after her play practice. We thought at the latest it'd end at 7, and then it was like 6:10. But then Ian found out he had to go eat at his mom's, but not for a while, so we went to Woodridge for a pathetic 10 minutes. It really was stupid. So I took Ian to his mom's, then me and Taylor went back to my house and watched videos on youtube. Ashley called me! She told me about her new school. She's doing great there. She told me stories about how easy the school is and how religious everyone was... She ever has a slight accent now. It's growing on her! Lol. But yeah. i felt bad because I told her I had to go cuz I was doing homework, but I wasn't, I just didn't wanna say that I had people over because I felt like that'd be mean. But I think I should've just said that now though because I feel like lying was lame. Anyway. So then me and Taylor decided to go to Pei Wei, but by then it was like 7:20 and Ian texted me that he was done and could come hang out. So we went and picked him up then went. We drove by the high school and they were still in practice.

Finally we got to pei wei. I got sweet and sour chicken. It was ok. My teeth started hurting. We left. Then for some reason, Ian was really effing hyper. He put on backstreet boys in the car and wanted to roll down the windows and sing it really loud, but I wouldn't let them lol. I locked the windows. So then we went into the high school parking lot and WHOA! Right as I drove by I saw them coming out of play practice! So then we saw Heather and flagged her down and she came and sat in the car with us, after Ian was screaming FUCK over and over because I turned off the music lol. So we talked for a while and I told her to ask her parnets if she could come over to my house and maybe watch a movie. So then she got in her car and we followed her to her house. Well actually, we led her there because I was in front. Ian and Taylor did dance things out the windows lol. They were insane! But we got to her house, and then she just came and told me her mom said no. That sucked. So then I just took everyone home, got home, took a painkiller, and now I'm here, dizzy as crap. If parts of this don't make sense, you know why. I don't know why, but my teeth really effing hurt. And I'm mad that Heather couldn't come hang out. I missed her a lot. I'll just have to see her tomorrow.

I kinda have a dilema right now. Talisha told me that Ian still likes me. I've been kinda sorta flirting with him a little since I found that out, but I don't know if I like him. I don't really wanna go out with him right now, at least. I don't know what to do. I kinda wanna talk to Heather about it, but I don't wanna seem... I don't even know, but I don't wanna seem it. So yeah. I might bring it up to her, but I might not. I think I just wanna talk about it to her cuz I like those one on one talks we have sometimes. I feel like too many times they're just her talking to me, and I never give advice, so I think I should try shooting it back at her. We'll see.

School tomorrow.

SUCKS.

sorry about the effing long entry. It covers a lot of ground. I need to make these less detailed.

Oh yeah! I had a dream the other night, where basically I went to a party at Megan's house, colton married megan, I went with Zoe and Zach Ogle but I thought his name was matt, and Zoe wanted to eat at this chinese restaunawhi but I didn't know where it was so we had to go back to my house to mapquest it which was connected to the school so we had to go through Mr. O's office to get in and I wanted to go to double daves but we didn't and we went to the place and people were singing and I got super powers that other people's powers didn't affect me and a super suit and so people were trying to kill me.

At the beginning, Hal was a retard and had the worst haircut ever, and I made fun of him, but Heather still liked him.

Sorry if that made no sense, but I just wanna go to sleep and don't wanna type the word restauraunt. eff. I just did.

I couldn't avoid it any longer. I have to record the madness here. Lol. Even though it's been a week since it happened.

Ahem.

So, as planned, we met at my house for pictures. We took plenty. Zoe was really late. But that was ok. Everybody looked really nice. Anyway. So then we went over to Paesonoes for dinner. We thought it was gonna be crowded, but it wasn't, so we just ignored the reservation we made for 10 people when we only had 5 lol so we didn't seem like such douches and sat down immediately anyway. It was yummy food! We saw a ton of people eating there also.

Ok so then we went and dropped off Kenzie's car at her house and all got in Heather's. We found the place fine and went on in. It was freakin cold! At least I thought so. The sucky part was that it wasn't cold enough for the jacket I brought, so I left that in the car, but it was still cold enough to be chilly, know what I mean? So yeah it was really crowded. The dance floor was tiny and packed, and then they had this outdoor place with a bunch of tables and stuff, then they had a few rooms where one had a ton of water and stuff but nobody was in it. When we came in the stamped the girl's hands with ladybugs and the boys with smileyfaces and said that if you left you couldn't come back in, which didn't make any sense. They were also searching some of the guys, which was dumb. Anyway, we soon lost track of Kenzie and Zoe, so then it was just me Heather and Ian. We ran into Avery and Jackie and hung out in the empty water room and talked for a while. Then we decided to go dance. They had this band playing like classic rock. Dude, there were so many drunk people. When I walked in this obviously drunk girl who reeked of alcohol like fell over me... Then Brant Bakke and Charlie whoever were they in jeans, they were drunk. That was weird. But yeah I think Parker Jesse was too. I saw him and Thomas McSween kinda crowdsurfing while we were dancing. We left the floor when the band took a break and went and sat outside. They started playing rap. Lol It was kinda funny cuz at a certain point they like stopped the music and were like "if you do that again we're shutting this down!" and everyone was booing and stuff... lol. But yeah.

So, we were sitting outside, and then we were talking about the possibility of us not wanting to stay for the whole after party. Ian said it was just gonna be a ton of drunk and high people making out everywhere, so we deduced that we probably won't wanna stay for the whole time. We needed to decide a place to go after, cuz we sure as hell weren't gonna go home. Ian was like "just put everything on the table, any place you can think of!"

so after saying Ian's house and my house, I said "THE LAKE!"

BAM

instant epiphany!

Long story short, we left senior party immediately (it was like 11) and headed for the lake. First we had to track down Kenzie and Zoe since we rode with them there. Kenzie decided she'd go with us, but I felt bad because she was excited about going to after party. She decided that we'd stop by and get her car so that if she wanted to come back for after party she could. Zoe was gonna come too, but I could tell she didn't want to. So, when we were leaving she said she was going to say bye to someone, but I figured she was going to try to find a ride, which I thought was fine. She did. So she stayed.

We went ahead and left. We got to the lake at like midnight. Ian hid at first and Kenzie said he went home, but I saw through that BS immediately lol. So yeah Heather climbed in the window to my parent's bedroom and unlocked the door. I so called it that Ian was gonna jump against the door window to scare us! He did, but I didn't get scared. Then we just didn't let him in lol. Me and Heather pretended to have sex to make him jealous haha. Instead he pressed his nipple against the glass lol. Finally we let him in. He like stripped down to his boxers... That was weird... But he had a blanket. So otherwise we didn't do much. We talked. Eventually Kenzie left, at like 1:30. We stayed. We kept saying "We have to do something crazy!" but we didn't do anything.

Ian was kinda frisky. I could tell. But mostly towards Heather. Finally Ian was like "well, we aren't gonna do anything crazy sitting down! Get up!" so we got up.

That didn't last long either. Ian kneed Heather between the legs and she went down fast lol.

So then we were sitting the on the ground. Ian was like "let's expiriment!" and Heather came really close to kissing me. She did earlier too, on the couch. It was kidna weird.

But so yeah.

We left at 2:45.

All in all, I think it was kinda lame. I felt bad for not going to after party, like our parents thought we were going to. They like printed us out directions and everything. I'm such a lameo. But I still feel kinda guilty. I mean, it was cool and fun, but...

Anyway. Enough.

On the drive home, we were like "we have to come up with something to tell everyone! something crazy!"

So we came up with a story to support the whole "Skylar and Heather are lesbians" thing. We said that after Kenzie left, we wanted to do something crazy. So, we played spin the bottle. Heather spun it and it landed on me, so she kissed me, but then we kept going. Lol Ian tells it the best, because then he says that it got really awkward for him and he just kinda went and got food and then finally at 2:45 made us leave lol. When I found out that Talisha told Reese the truth, we altered it so that we WERE joking, but then this thing at senior party happened and all the sudden it wasn't a joke anymore. Haha.

But so yeah. That's what happened! The next day, well, I already told you.

I have so much to say but so little time to say it in! I guess I'll go backwards.

MY FISH IS HAVING BABIES!!!!!! WTF?!?! THEY'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THAT!!!

Heather so called it. But right now I just see 2 little baby fishes in there. I don't have time to move them to a separate tank or anything because I gotta run to Fort Worth in like 30 minutes. Speaking of which, I should be packing right now.

Anyway. So last night I went over to Ian's with Taylor and Talisha. Ian's brother was having a party over there. Like whoa, you could smell the cigar smoke from across the street. I thought Ian didn't like his brother, but he was all excited that he was home. Anyway. We were gonna start a fire, but then we couldn't because it's a burn ban right now. Drought. It sucks. So instead we decided to go to whataburger and get some shakes. Ian got a burger. I was jealous. It's still weird for me to chew. This morning it's actually a ton better! I'm eating soup right now and I had a piece of bread. Anyway, after we stopped at whataburger we went back to Ian's and hung out in his room with Audrey Mabrito. She's pretty funny. I don't know if she knows my name or not. Oh well..

Before I went to Ian's I went to see Twilight again with my mom and Lee. It was still good the 3rd time around! YAY! My mom thought it was weird. Yesterday was a really productive day though. I got my driver's license AND my passport! And when I got my driver's license, it didn't come up that I had a ticket! So, if I just wait for my license with my picture in it to come in, THEN go to the court, nobody will ever know I was driving with an expired license. Unless they read this.... ahem... if you are reading this... I'm sorry, but I'm just scared of getting in trouble and ruining my future.

Alright but the day before yesterday. I slept ALL day. My wisdom teeth got taken out. It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it was gonna be. I went in there, they stuck in the IV, I told the sir cumfrence joke and then I think I told the no ghandi joke, but that's where things get fuzzy. Then I think I was dreaming about Heather and Hal while they did it. I remember hearing some things, like the saw or drill or whatever, the doctors talking, some pulling, but I didn't feel anything. When I woke up they wheeled me out. In the waiting room I think I saw Shelby Smith. I'm not sure if it was her though. Anyway it was some girl and her mom was like "that's gonna be you in an hour!" Then the girl kinda whined and made a scared face, so I tried to say "It's not that bad" but I think it came out more like "jhuhsadfhieo"

My whole face was still pretty much numb. I don't remember the car ride home or getting out of the car or walking into the house, I just remember getting in the car (vaguely) and then lying down in my mom's bed and going to sleep. Heather and Hal stopped by around 3:30 and brought me ice cream. That was really nice of them! I don't really remember what went on then either... I thought Heather was wearing her cow shirt, but apparently she wasn't. Hal said "Aw we woke her up" and Heather said "I'm gonna miss my flight!" and then they left. Apparently Heather made Hal walk home from the junior school, but she kinda had to. She really was gonna miss her flight...

Anyway. The feeling came back to my face somewhere around 5:30 the next morning, completely by 10. It really wasn't bad.

But now my mom's home. I'll tell you about senior party another time ;)

So yeah. I got cut off in my last entry. My mom came home. I didn't really want her to see what I was typing, so I just finished it off. But yeah I didn't finish.

So another thing that happened was I GOT TICKETS FOR THE BROKEN SOCIAL SCENE CONCERT JANUARY 31ST IN AUSTIN!!!!!! YESSS!!!!!!!!!! SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!! and Ian, Taylor, Talisha, Matt, Heather, and Zoe are all coming with me! It's gonna be so fun!

Anyway. Another thing that happened. Edward and the Cullens ended up not being able to play at the Twilight midnight release. But wait! Wesley Ratliff (the promoter guy for the quarry) told this other promoter dude about us and he wants to start booking us shows! He wants a demo CD first though. We need to make that. I'm not gonna have time at all this week. Speaking of Twilight!!!

THE MOVIE WAS AWESOME!!!!!! LIKE REALLY!!!! I liked it better than the books! But don't tell Heather that... I actually don't like the Twilight books that much. I think they're poorly written and the plot is too cheesy. But, I like it so I can be in the band. That movie was freakin sweet though! So that kinda of revived a love in it for me. Ah! We passed out little flyers for Edward and the Cullens at the thing, with our myspace URL on it. I think that was really effective. I need to go check the myspace now for friend requests... Off I go!

Ok disappointing. There's NOTHING new. No new friend requests, nothing. Ouch. I really thought that was gonna work! Oh well.

So tonight was the last game. Well, it wasn't supposed to be, but it was playoffs and we lost. It was a good game though. We played the Killeen Kangaroos. We were losing 19-0 at the end of the half, and I thought it was over. But then, we held them all through the 3rd quarter and towards the end we scored a touchdown and a 2-point conversion! YES! And then the next quarter we did it again! So now it was 19-16 with only a few minutes left. Their ball, they stalled until 2 minutes left, then they punted it to us, yay, but then... they called a penalty. We lost the ball and some yardage. Then they stalled even more until we got the ball back with about 30 seconds left. We tried one play and got a little yardage, then it was 8 seconds. Do or die. We hiked the ball, Drew Allen backed up a ton, then he let it loose, peeeoowwww the ball flew through the air, incoming at the 10 yard line, then...

The guy didn't catch it.

So depressing.

At least we got in one cold game before it was over... It was freezing today! I had my letter jacket AND a blanket and I was STILL cold! I couldn't feel my toes! They gave us hot chocolate at half time.

The whole game was intense though. Really, the main reason I care about it being the last game is that it was my last game with Heather. That's really why I was upset.

Speaking of! Ok, now on to the happier part of the game, the bus ride!

On the way there, I was talking to Heather, and then Elliot happened to be looking at us, so then Heather and I pretended to make out... But then Elliot yells out "Whoa! Heather and Skylar are making out! Heather's a lesbian! Joey, your sister's a lesbian!!!"

Of course me and Heather are like "ELLIOT SHUT UP MS MIKEL IS ON THIS BUS!!!" but he didn't get it.

Al the sudden though we're being bombarded with "wait, really? did y'all really kiss?"

and of course we're kidding, but we're like "yes of course we're lesbian lovers!"

Except the funny thing... Reese believed us. So now, I think Reese thinks me and Heather are lesbians. We decided to play it off, so we told Ian and Erin what was going on and then pretended to be lesbians the rest of the night. At fuddruckers, Erin convinced Talisha we were too, but then told her it was a joke (but holy crap she really thought we were being serious?!?!), then she convinced Tynon. So now there's a rather sizable following of people that think me and Heather are lesbian lovers. Reese even asked "does Hal know?" and he thinks that's the reason why Heather turned him down for senior party. FUNNIEST thing ever!!!

But so yeah. Every time Reese walked by we got all up close and personal, haha.

So yeah. That's what happened today. Tomorrow I have to go get my dress for senior party, then after 6 I'm gonna go see some movies with Heather and Hal. I think we're gonna see Twilight and HSM 3.

So yes!

Oh yeah, don't remember if I mentioned this or not, but I went down to the DMV yesterday (or two days ago, rather) to renew my license. They made us leave because we didn't have a TEA form. Didn't know we needed one. So I got one at school today and we're gonna try again on Tuesday I think. Argh. This whole business is so frustrating though. GAH.

Ok. So Monday.

School was normal, it was fine. But then after school.

I got pulled over for turning right from the left lane. I got a ticket. This already sucks. But on top of this now.

My license expired on my birthday. I forgot about this. So this means that I got my ticket while my license was expired. Double whammy. Today (thursday) we went to the DMV to get it renewed, but you have to have a TEA form and we didn't know. So they sent us back. I'm gonna have to get one of those tomorrow before I leave for band. So yeah.

I have my huge english project due tomorrow. I was planning on making a trailer for the book using clips from the movie, but I tried yesterday and it was SO HARD. I couldn't do it! So I tried again today, and just BLAM! I blanked. I finally gave up and just decided to write a song, which I did, and recorded, and now that's done. Whew.

But yeah my NHS application is also due tomorrow. I have that pretty much finished. I think I might wanna add one more thing, but I wanna talk to my mom about it in the morning. I had a test in Wilen today that I hope I did good on.

Tomorrow is friday! Thank god! And then thanksgiving break! But my break kinda sucks.

Tomorrow will be fun. We're getting ABXed at lunch for football, w00t! But then saturday I have to go get my dress for senior party and then senior party itself is on sunday. Holy moly.

Then on monday I get my wisdom teeth removed. I'm really nervous about that. Tuesday is gonna be the day where I run around and do all my little errands. I'm gonna go get my license renewed, then to court about my ticket, and then to get my passport. I am not looking forward to this day.

Wednesday we're supposed to leave for Ft. Worth, if I'm gonna be going. Not sure yet. I need to be back for the next playoff game, if there is one. I hope there is.

But yeah.

Oh yeah! Yesterday Matt (from Australia) sent me a birthday present! At least, it got here yesterday. It's so awesome! He gave me a pair of jeans (random. but too bad, they're too big!) a T-Shirt that says "I <3 BNE" and I think BNE stands for Brisbane. Then a menu for the Lone STar Cafe, to check it for authenticity. A bunch of travel book things. Maps. Random bumper sticker. Tim Tams!!! WHICH ARE AMAZING!!! think giant kit kat! I'm in love with them!!! I ate half already...

But yeah I need to send him back the jeans and send him some stuff from here too... I'll do that once things slow down here.

Anyway. I think that's all I have to say right now...

OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE I ALMOST FORGOT!!!!!!

TWILIGHT MIDNIGHT RELEASE TONIGHT!!!!!!! AHHH!!!!! SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M GONNA LEAVE SOON!!!!!

I'm really excited right now!

I just called the dude from the quarry again and asked about the show thing! He said that they're trying to work something out with borders and make it a joint deal but he said he might hear back from them tonight!!! OMG! After I hung up I started jumping up and down.

I wouldn't be able to believe it. First live show- EVER!

So tonight's the first playoff game, exciting! Then tomorrow we start filming at 9 in the morning, yuck. But hopefully that will go well. I have a feeling it won't though because we've been really disorganized this whole time. So yeah then tomorrow night Heather's spending the night! Double excitement! And it's Hal's birthday party. It'll be fun. So yay.

OMG!

I have our song stuck in my head. "You're my anything and everything that matters to me! Anything and everything for eternity!" Oy.

So guess what. Reese wants to ask Heather out to senior party. BAD idea. I tried to convince him through text that he was just gonna get turned down, but he didn't seem to get it. So I called Heather and warned her. But she had to go watch a movie.

Meanwhile, we're filming our doritos commercial on saturday now. We really need to crack down on it. Like really. If we wanna do the 3 ideas we have we'll need to work fast. Our 3 main ideas are the one where the two guys are stealing the doritos from the dude in the house with the crappy reacher, and it keeps breaking. Then the other one is these two guys see a dude driving and eating doritos and they chase him. Finally, there's one where this guy is eating doritos and it makes everything beautiful and then when he's out, everything's ugly again. I like all of them! For the first 2, we need to use the slogan "Carpe Doritos" latin for "Seize The Doritos" lol. I love that!

But anyway. I'm starting to get tired...

Oh yeah. Physics and Latin test today. Both went Ok I thought. Mr. Munoz came in my Latin class and tried to speak latin... kinda failed, but it was funny.

I need to go charge my camera.

Oh yeah! Fable was being a bitch today. It kept freezing. So I had to kinda skip a quest. I don't know what I'm gonna do about traveling through Rookrridge... Hm. But yeah. Did you know you can buy condoms in that game? I bought 5. And there's lesbians!!! LAWL!!!

So yeah. Now I'm done.

So today. I feel a giant weight lifted off my shoulders! We were working on the Doritos commercial at Alex's house, and then we decided we were gonna go all in for that one and forget about the insomnia one. We just can't do both to the best of our ability, I think. And the doritos one isn't due until sunday! That makes things so much better!

So my official birthday is this Saturday, but I moved it to Friday so that Saturday can be Hal's day. For his party we're going to eat at formosa garden at like 5:30 and then off to a mormon dance. Whoopee. I have to wear a knee length dress with sleeves. I'm just gonna wear my brown and white one, even though it's not very wintery, I don't really care anymore. I don't really wanna go. But Hal insists. We tried to talk him out of it this morning, but he got kind of upset and I feel really bad now. I'm gonna apologize tomorrow.

We got a lot further with EatC today! We FINALLY figured out the rest of Hey Jacob Black. I'm excited.

I came up with a cool chord progression a few days ago. Capo 2nd fret, then D (+sus) C(+sus) G. Me like.

The only words that I have as a possibility for it at the moment are

V-A-M-P-I-R-E
That is what I want to be
V-A...

Open A dictiontionary
Vampires are imaginary
V-A...

Why are such things fictional
All the best things in life aren't real

And yada yada. I was thinking it could be like an ode to the unreality of vampires... Sad.

Even though I don't really like vampires.

Alrighty. So today I learned about 2 film contests I wanna enter! Except one is 24 hours on saturday, and that's my birthday AND Hal's party, so I don't think I can do that one, but the prize is macbook pros for everyone. The other one that I think I AM gonna enter is a Doritos commercial. We came up with our idea today. We need to make a harpoon gun... But yeah the prize for that one is a million dollars.

So Heather just told me she likes Hal... again... But I'm glad she tells me these things. She said she loved me more than she could ever love a guy, but not in that way... So yeah. It feels good to have a best friend.

Right now I'm kinda obsessed with this song Inside The Cinema by The Culture Rejects. It's been stuck in my head forever!

I need to go print out my english homework. Then I need to go to sleep. It's late.

There was something else I wanted to say...

I kinda had a fight with my mom today.

Oh! And Ian gave me my present! He got me the Heroes SG symbol necklace. It's AWESOME!!!! I already have one, but I'm not gonna let him know that. I like this one better anyway. It's nice and shiny. I think I'll wear it again tomorrow.

FABLE 2 ROCKS!!!

Prompt: "your 45 and wondering why on earth am I in this dead end job of endless paper work: accepted, declined and so on. so one day you decide to change, break free"

My Response:

One click yes, two clicks no
Watching lunch breaks come and go
Burning in an inferno
The second hand, it ticks so slow
One click yes, two clicks no
Living for the ebb and flow
Periodic functions ever so
Predictable, like the moon's glow
Cycle, cycle, cycle, through
Pondering things I'll never do
Realization hits like Little Boy II
Then papers flying, glasses askew

The wind on my face, so brisk and dark
The contrast of my skin, so pale and stark
And yet I feel instilled in me
A hope that SOMEthing's changing me
So be it me, or be it you
At least there's something changing you


I don't really like it all that much, but it's ok for a quick one.

So today I had a test in English. It was hard. We had the golf ball launcher contest in physics! It was awesome! We won, by a ton. We got 50 points total, and Louisa's group was the next highest with 22... LOL! I think what made ours so good was that Angie put her finger under the thing and so she could feel how much pressure was put on it when it was pulled back at the right amount... so she told me less or more and so we landed a ton in the middle. It was completely and utterly awesome. 100 w00t!!!!!!!!!

Alrighty so then I called Wesley Ratliff after school with Heather and Hal! He said that he had to call some promotion people first, but he would do that today and then he'd call me back by wed or thurs and we'd know if we could play a show at the twilight premire. SO EXCITED!!! I had a good day.

Well when I got home I just went ahead and did my english homework until we left to eat dinner at around 6. At dinner my mom told us about this dream she had on Saturday where Sylar came and captured her, except he wasn't really Sylar, but he made her kill someone for him. She had to choose between 2 people or he would kill both, and she had to choose between me or Heather. I just thought it was really weird Heather was in my mom's dream. Oh well.

So then after dinner we went and got Fable 2!!! It's pretty awesome. I started playing it. I didn't get to play for that long though until we watched Heroes, and then by that time I needed to check my facebook and cullen cults and stuff and make this post, then I should go to sleep. I'll play it more tomorrow. I'm excited! I should also study for my math test, but eh. I'll do fine.

Goodnight!

Ok. So a lot happened since I last got the chance to post. I'll start on Friday.

We lost the game to Steele :(. Depressing. Their band also kinda blew us out of the water with their volcano and over 30 flutes... argh... but it was senior night for band! We did our little flute salute and it was nice. I carried ET's shoes and Heather's piccolo. Heather cried a little bit for it being her last Rock... I was sad too... But yeah that day at school we also tested our golf ball launcher for Physics and it worked pretty good. That actual contest is tomorrow.

So then after the game Heather went home and so did Talisha, but me, Reese, Matt, and Ian went over to Ian's house and lit a fire and chilled outside. We just kinda talked and then at midnight we left and I sat in the car while Matt and Reese peed out the fire... gross... I need more friends that are girls...

So anyway! Then the next day was my 17th BDAY party!!!!!!! WOOO!!!! We left at around 1 and drove out to the lake. Heather, Hal, Matt, and Ian rode in my car and Kenzie, Talisha, and Reese went in Kenzie's. My car stopped at Blockbuster on the way and we took forever to pick out Untraceable and Smart People, but then we continued on to the house.

When we got there we went ahead and did cake and presents first. My mom and Lee got me a keyboard! It's really awesome. Talisha got me a card with 10 bucks in it and said my other present was in the mail, then Heather and Hal and Reese gave me 50 bucks to the quarry and a card with cut out little pictures of penises in it and taped on the inside. Wow. Lol. Finally, Kenzie gave me this AWESOME scrapbook with pics of us when we were little!!! It was really sweet! I love it! And then in the back it had 10 bucks to freddy's and 10 bucks to the quarry. I'm gonna be watching a lot of movies! But yeah they were all great presents. So then we watched Smart People. It was really funny.

AFter that we went outside and shot off fireworks. 150 bottle rockets, to be exact. Holy frigign crap. Then we went out to eat at Blake's, but not before Heather made Lee tihnk I was a lesbian... I don't know what they think now... But it was really awkward... Lee was like "Oh, they're just expirimenting... I mean I know gay is hip, but..."

I was just like "Uhhhh I'm not a lesbian!!!"

Lol.

But so then when we got back from Blake's we went ahead and lit a little campfire and told ghost stories and made smores. It was cool. Then we went and played that animal game, with a towel, and I was a Caribou, but then I changed to be a Lion because nobody was calling out Caribou and it was getting boring. Lol one time (I can't remeber if it was Reese or Ian, I think Reese,) but one of them called out "CUNT!" Instead of an animal. It was hilairious. Heather was in the middle and she just started laughing but I was like "Heather, you should have hit me!!!" lol

So then we played Do You Love Your Neighbor, and that was fun, but then we got cold so we went back over to the fire. Then we tried to play Never Have I Ever, but it kinda failed, so we stopped and just talked and told stories. Then sadly Hal and Reese had to leave at midnight since their parents are Nazis... Anyway so they left. Oh yeah, Reese was getting all pissy because we were getting mad at him about Jamie. See, what happened was that he broke up with Jamie because he was "scared that he only liked her for her body." WHAT THE HELL?!?! WHY WOULD YOU EVER SAY THAT?!?! So he made himself look like a huge jerk, which he was, and then she still got back together with him the same day. Kind of retarded, in my opinion. But hopefully she'll come to her senses sometime soon...

So yeah then we just talked some more and Heather told us stories about her German school, and they tickled me for a long time and it was torture, but finally at 3 am we went to sleep. Matt tried to scare us but it didn't really work. I woke up and was scared for like 5 esconds when I saw the door was cracked open, but then I realized it was just one of the guys and threw my pillow at him. Then I went back to sleep.

So then today, this morning, we all woke up. Except me and Heather. We took slightly longer... But yeah we got up at like 11. Me and Heather missed breakfast, so I had cake and she had cookie dough instead. Then we watched Untraceable and then talked more and went ouside. Finally we left at around 3:30 and so we got home at around 5. I dropped everyone off then and went home.

When I got home I was kinda pissy cuz I was really tired and I wanted to play Fable 2, but I didn't wanna just go to the store and get it cuz somebody might have bought it for me for my birthday, so I was trying to call my mom and ask her, but she wasn't answering her phone. So then I procrastinated homework for a long time and almost fell asleep, but didn't. Finally I started it and my mom came home and we got in a mini fight, but no biggie, and I did part of my hw and now I'm typing this. I'm trying to finish this fast now which is why the sentences don't make sense because it's getting long and i'm trying to run a chat room with Matt Taylor and Ian, who are all on aim right now and it's really weird...

Oh I also wrote this poem on facebook! How about I post it tomorrow? Ok!

Doesn't that subject just make you happy?

I'm really excited for the weekend! We have a Puritan Party in English tomorrow, score!

It's senior recognition night for band at the game, so me and Krystal decided to make the seniors T-shirts. I feel kinda bad cuz I kinda let Krystal make them all... but yeah. I'm gonna write them a song for their graduation. That'll be my contribution! We also made a quick little flute salute for when they call their names.

So then also this weekend: MY BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!!

It's on saturday!

We're going up to the lake house and just chilling. Watching movies, making a fire, roasting marchmellows, it'll be great! And by we, I mean I invited Heather, Kenzie, Talisha, Erin, Zoe, Taylor, Ian, Hal, Reese, and Matt. I don't know if Taylor and Erin can go, but everyone else is for sure. EXCITEMENT!!!

So yeah. I might not post at all this weekend.

Oh, I wrote some poems today! I was playing a game with Ian and started writing them.

withering walks in dissolving twilight
shadows dance around the firelight
we mingle between the cracked sticks and stones
the silence between us like brittle bone

That one's about like two people walking in the woods at night around their campsite. They have something to say, and it might be hurtful, hence the stick and stones (like sticks and stone can break my bones, but words will never hurt me? Yeah.) and the silence is waiting to be broken, like brittle bones.

breath like smoke, thick and slow
pulling, reaching, undertow
wind like needles, sharp and swift
pulling, reaching, winning, LIFT

That one's just about running when it's cold. How it's hard to breath and hard to keep moving forward...

The spray of salt melts into my dreams
This trickle of peace soon flows into streams
My sun became my nightingale
Shining through these billowed sails
Where my dreams go my conscience trails
Held next to this, all else pales

That's just about me falling asleep on the sail boat in the BVI's

and finally this one was based off of the prompt Ian gave me: "your a docter, and you just got off your first day, it is in new york, around 2 in the morning with a glow in the sky where you can only see 3 stars as if they have been abandoned, like your wife has abandoned you, and how you envy to one day meet your only child"

The foil of my misery
In the sky hopefully shines three
Though not alone, they were meant to be
Frighteningly similar to me
Through my red eyes, stunned by surgical silver
In the dawn I can't help but to shiver
I thought I saw him standing there
But to my dismay, I saw only air

I think they're pretty good for just doing them on the spot like... I should write poems more often! Well, it's about time for bed for me. Band in the morning. ERrrghhhh.

I'm gonna make this fast since I am reallllyyyyy tired.

I had to go to school today. Sucks.

Not much happened. During lunch I went to my math classroom and worked on the homework in there.... Sucks.

After school we started our Physics project! And finished it! It took only like 3 hours. We went to Matt's house and he pretty much did it for us. We ended up duct taping a plastic serving spoon to the rat trap, and screwing that onto this wood base. Then we spray painted it black and stenciled out a blue background for the flames, except Matt messed it up and then couldn't stand it and decided to redo it, but apparently he ran out of paint, so we have to go get some more. Damn. Well, tomorrow we're taking it to class so we can test it and make adjustments so that we can land our gold balls in the bucket. W00t!!!

Well now I'm going to sleep.

Oh yeah, Colton's dating Megan Mauldin!!!!

Alright. Well, it looks like I didn't have to wait that long.

Obama is the new president.

I guess we'll see how this goes....

Despite being the subject of this entry, that's not relaly what my day revolved around. Some points from my day instead go as follows:

- Today was the state marching band competition for 5A. I went and skipped school to watch it with Heather and Matt, but mostly Heather. It was pretty cool.

- Me and Heather left from that early and when I got back to the school, I went to Wilen's class to pick up my quizzes and make up the one that I missed. So I go in and after waiting for him to get there, I ask him if I can do that. Of course he says yes, and then Meghann Blake is like "Why are you nice to her?!" and Mr Wilen says "How can you not?" Lol. I guess that just made me feel good, especially when Meghann just said "True." Back. And then this other girl, who I can't recall the name of, but who I know from middle school, was like "You are very laid back. I don't know. Maybe it's just because I slept next to you for 2 nights." and I was like "whaaa?" and then she was like "you might not remember... it was a church retreat a long time ago..." But yeah I didn't remember. It still felt nice that almost a complete stranger (to me at least) thought I gave off a laid-back vibe.

- I had ice cream today!

- I got my oil changed and my tires pumped. Yay me.

- I watched House with my mom and Lee! WEE!!! That's a good show.

- FINALLY we get to it! Today IS election day. But anyway, as I'm sitting there with my mom and lee watching the election coverage (Obama is winning. by a lot. My parents aren't really happy.) we start talking about Colton. See, he was out with Megan Mauldin tonight (oooo!!!!!). I don't know what the deal is with them. She's a junior and he's a freshman. That's weird. And My mom doesn't like it. But so my mom wanted us to go spy on them sitting on the trampoline, and then she started ranting off about them. It went something like this:

"And they're not even doing anything! They're not making music or doing anything goal related, and so that leads to sex! or drugs!"

Lee: "Or both, if you're lucky"

I started cracking up, to say the least.

So yeah. That's a weird deal that I don't know what's going on with. But right now, I'm really tired, so I guess I'll retire.

I'll find out who our new president is in the morning.

I bet it's Obama.

haha just thought I'd put that because lately I've been having really weird dreams every night.

Like last night. I wasn't me, I was this dude, and I was fighting these people that were alien robot things and their faces looked like the bad guys in the Sock Baby video thing. Anyway, they had really sharp knives that if it just barely touched you, blood would just splatter everywhere! But yeah so apparently all my brothers and sisters killed themselves, but then I found them locked in a box and they had stayed children but I grew up, and then they told me to keep the box closed and open it again in 30 years so they could be young and I'd be old and they'd kill me. I told them I'd do it.

Hm.

Anyway so then today was boring. I went to Taco Cabana at night for dinner for the band fundraiser. I ended up staying for like 2 hours and talking with Ian and passing out little flyers to everyone who walked in. So yeah it was good, I guess. Then I came home and did homework and watched parts of The Other Boylean (sp?) Girl. It was a pretty good movie, even though I've seen it before, on the plane back from London.

But so yeah tomorrow is the State Marching Contest!!! NO SCHOOL w00t!!! I get to spend the whole day hanging out with heather!!! I'm taking my history stuff too so I can work on that.

I don't know why, but I'm kinda freaking out about NHS and all the projects that are about to rain down on me as I near the end of the 6 weeks... Oh man....

Well I better get to sleep. Nighty night!

So yeah. Not much to report today, since it's still pretty early, but yes. I usually wake up at noon, but today my parents turned the TV on really loud downstairs, so I found myself awak at 7:30 and unable to fall back asleep. An hour of that can be accounted for with daylight savings time being changed last night, so I got an extra hour, but still. I laid in bed until like 9:30 and tried to continue the dream I had. It was kinda epic.

Im gonna try to explain all the parts I remember...

So it started off with me finding this college that was a film school. I was walking around in the huge store thing and they had all these sweatshirts and stuff with the college's name on it, and I was like "omg this is so awesome!" Then I went into Latin class, but for some reason it was outside and kinda by where I live, and for some reason Heather and Hal were in my class. Well technically they were in 7th period and I was in 6th, but they were there. Our classes joined for the day for some weird reason. Mrs. Lehmann was talking about having us do this chant thingy and we would see clearly, but Hal wouldn't do it cuz he was mormon. Instead he wanted to go off by himself and "meditate" in the woods, so then a lot of other people did that too, like Heather. I stayed to do the chant so I wouldn't hurt Mrs Lehmann's feelings. They ran off to go in the nature trails, but they definately went the wrong direction but in my dream it was the right one... Weird. Anyway so then all the sudden I was running away for some reason and Matt and Nick Lammers were with me. I was running through the woods and I had myself wrapped in saran wrap so I could slide down hills, which makes no sense. Anyway somehow we got to this huge stadium. It was kinda like the Coliseum how it was built. So then we climbed up the wall and all the sudden I was in my Waffle costume... Then we were like "we have to get to the other side!" and so Nick was like "I'm just gonna run through the middle!" Me and Matt were supposed to follow him, but we kinda got scared and didn't. Good thing too because we watched him run down and jump onto the field and he was running across, but then these weird karate guys who were in the middle started chasing him and they were beating him up. It was weird though becaues like 3 of them at a time would do the exact same thing, same timing and everything. So then they caught him and took him somewhere. Me and Matt decided to go around. We jumped down from the wall, and then there were these two fat guys that were gonna try to mug me or something. I tried to kick them in the nuts, but for some reason no matter how hard I tried I couldn't scream loud enough and every time I tried to kick them, either I wouldn't reach or my foot would slow down when it got close and they'd just take a step back. It sucked. But then somehow Matt was Heather now, and so me and her were still trying to get around the stadium thing. I wasn't in my waffle costume anymore. The security people were trying to catch us and kick us out though, so we had to be quick. We figured that we should stick to the woods because those were public property and they couldn't kick us out from there. So then we were walking around the edge of the stadium until we got to a part that was like the back fence at a baseball field, where there's a little wall, then an empty area, then more wall higher up, but it was seats. So we tried walking in that little gap, but then some guards saw us and started chasing us. We ran and were heading for the woods, but as soon as we thought we broke into the woods it was like a kid's day care place. There was a huge platform and I remember seeing a truck, but then it was gone I think. So the guards were still chasing us, but we saw a fence and figured that the woods were on the other side. We ran to it and jumped over it, but it was a lot longer fall than a jump and we landed on a bunch of rocks. Neither of us got hurt though. I waited a whlie and then I climbed back over the fence onto that platform, then I walked over to this staircase that led down to fairgrounds again, and I saw that when we landed on those rocks it made like a little rock slide and some guards were trapped. Then Heather tiptoed down the little rock hill, but she was wearing a business suit thing! Like a red suit jacket and a black knee-length skirt with hose and glasses. She waved at me and mouthed that I should go change too so we wouldn't stick out so much. So then I went and jumped over that fence again and started walking up the rocks to this closet to change, but then I woke up. Kinda random time to wake up, but yeah...

So that was epic. REALLY long dream. Then I fell back asleep a little later and had a dream about getting extra credit in Latin for watching Peter fight Sylar 3 or something, and then I only watched 2 of the fights but later Chris Matthews was there and he did it, so I went and did it cuz I was mad with myself for not trying for that little extra. Yeah...

So lots of dreams!

In less than an hour I'm going to watch Marcus band reherse at our stadium cuz Ms Mikel told us to. Hm. Don't know how long I'll stay at that...